04/26/10 in the dark night of the soul

Father why am I captive to these emotions?

How can I escape the hurt

Is this where I belong?

I do not like the turmoil in my soul.

And I run to God

His mighty arms I seek

For refuge from the storm

Under His wings of love

Some days I do not soar like an Eagle

And I look up searching for His smiling eyes

Only to find a cloud and rain on my face

And I fear rather, like a sheep I’ll drown

I know You are here Lord

My faith has not faltered

I just cannot feel Your presence

And I am lost in a sea of loneliness

So here I sit down head in hands

Weary and weakened, simply listless

Unable to even hold my head up

Or open my eyes to You

Where are You beloved?

Have I not given You my heart?

Please do not leave me here alone

I perish without Your presence.

Yet where else shall I turn?

There is none other but You

No father is Your measure

No lover so passionate

No mother so tender

No husband so caring

No brother so close

Therefore I wait upon You

And though I die

I cannot turn from You.

I am lost without You.

Oh God my God

I will always love You

Forsake me not

Do not disdain my presence

Cleanse me with Your Sacrifice

Lead me to Your side

Bend me to Your will

Let me glorify Your name

And give me peace.

There is no peace

There is no joy

There is no love

Outside You