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Hi I am a Christian, a nurse, the mother of two grown children and two grand daughters, one grandson, and 3 dogs. I love people and have a huge heart. So why am I blogging? Well I've been told that I need to publish my writings. This seemed to be the easiest way to do that. Also, I want to get out there and live life to the fullest. Empty nests are great because now I get to explore the world. I'm starting right here on my computer. So come along with me and as I learn to fly we'll soar together!

Wednesday, May 30, 2012

05/30/2012 Memorial Day weekend vacation with Cheryl


Friday: pack up the bags.  What should I bring?  idk, a dress, no two, undies, bras, Capri pants, two pr of jeans one black one blue, tops, hmmm can’t choose, I’ll just bring four of them. Ok that leaves shoes, again, can’t choose, bringing four wearing one.  Let’s see, next is the computer, toothbrush, hair brush, evening bag earrings rings necklace just in case.  Oh and jammies and swim suit and towel. Ok that should do it.

Saturday: 5am up and let out the dogs, then let them back in and get them situated, load the car up, check FB and Evony and out the door by 7.  Gas up in town then I get to Cheryl’s around 7:45 and she’s ready.  We load up her things and my little smart car is filled up in the back.  Everything fits perfectly!  Off we go at 8:00 on the road. 

Cheryl brought egg salad, chicken salad, tuna salad, bread, cookies, cake, whipped cream, onion dip and chips along with her other things!  Note to self: always bring Cheryl on vacation!!!  We decided to take the Google route which is not exactly always the beaten track but it was fun and Cheryl was a great navigator.  We stopped 3 times if I remember right, got gasoline potty break and to have a snack.  There were fruit stands and I got some peaches and a huge delicious tomato at one of them.  I drove the whole way down and we played our praise music the entire time.  Somehow being in a car with someone who loves Jesus as much as I do and spending time singing and listening to praise is so peaceful and pleasant.  The scripture; Behold, how good and how pleasant it is for brothers to dwell together in unity”! (Psalm 133:1) comes to mind, and I thoroughly enjoyed traveling with my sister.   Several times I was overwhelmed with joy as I felt God’s love for me through the music and with the company driving along together.  This great peace joy and love made for a great time being with my good friend and just having fun together.  It was perfect.  The traffic was not bad at all in spite of the holiday, and we arrived at our hotel by around 4pm with no difficulties at all.

At the hotel, the room we booked (2 queen beds, no smoking, ground floor) was not available because according to his records we had booked a single queen bed, but the clerk was accommodating and put us in the handicap room which had two full beds.  It was a smoking room but had not been used for quite a while so it worked out just fine. 

We got settled into the room and quickly showered and dressed and took off for the beach.  The weather was wonderful, good breeze blowing in the 90something degree heat which made it very pleasant.  We went to the Beachcomber restaurant that sits right on the beach and ate outside while we watched the waves and the people driving by.  The restaurant was next to one of the outlets that allow cars onto the beach so there was some amusing antics going on with those who tried to exit there.  It was not the most level ramp and the sand is so powder fine that holes are easily dug in it if you spin a bit. 

Dinner was delicious and the coronas topped it off nicely.  What a wonderful way to spend a Saturday!  We’d planned to go out after changing again, but when we came back to the hotel and sat down there was no getting us out again. Ha!  I guess neither of us are the party animals we used to be!!

Sunday: up around 8am and had our coffee in the room.  The hotel had a breakfast for us but we just had the coffee, and I had a boiled egg and some juice also.  We were anxious to get to the water so we put on our suits and took off for the beach.  St Augustine is a wonderful historic city, being the oldest city in the USA and has some fascinating architecture so driving anywhere is a treat and although our hotel was not near the water it was no problem to get in the car and run down to the center of town or to the beach.  Lions Bridge is one of many bridges that span multiple waterways this amazing city is situated on.  Cheryl tells me that you can see dolphins and manatee in the ocean if you’re standing on the bridge.  We didn’t get a chance to do that this time.  I’m definitely coming back to this city again because there’s a lot more to see and do than we had time for this trip.

We got to the beach and drove right out onto the sand and found a spot that looked good.  The tide was out but on the way back in so there was a lot of beachfront before we got to the water.  Parked in the soft sand and walked out to put our chairs down.  The sand is so fine it’s more like baby powder than the sand I’m used to from California.  The beach is clean and the sand is white/grey and no tar in sight!  There are birds fishing and the breeze is blowing and it’s warm but overcast with billowing clouds going by at a pretty good pace.  Perfect as far as I was concerned because it was not too hot to sit and relax and listen to the wonderful sound of waves crashing on the shore.  Some surfers are here and a few joggers and several people walking their dogs along the water line.  We went straight to the water after putting our things down and anchoring them to our chairs.  The water was warm and inviting in spite of the windy evidence of an off shore storm, waves rolling in at a pretty good pace with foamy crests and a swift current underneath.  The ocean here does not have a swift drop off like the pacific that I’m used to so one can walk out pretty far into the water and still only be waist deep when a wave is not cresting.   But there were big enough waves for the surfers to get some pretty good rides.  I was surprised too that the area was so clean and so few people were out.  It's nice to see and enjoy this beautiful setting and marvel at the majesty of God’s creation.  We played in the water a bit and then came out to sit and dry off and just watch and listen to the music of the rolling thunderous waves crashing in a rhythm only they are able to count.  Clouds blew by and sun shown intermittently between them, an occasional raindrop was felt as well, but the breeze was picking up and pretty soon it was more windy than breezy and sand began to blow in it.  We’d had our egg salad sandwiches chips and dip brunch and were ready to start thinking about going when the tide made the decision for us in a rather sudden move.  Good thing the only part of our things that got wet was the towels!  We quickly got our things together and made our way back to the car and packed up.  

The drive to the next outlet to get off the beach was quite a ways but a fun drive.  My little car is a trooper and we did just fine in the powdery sand with the wind blowing in spite of a bit of angst on Cheryl’s part.  Once back on the regular road surface I pulled over to let her drive again since she's been here before and knows it well.  I wanted to enjoy all the scenery that I could while I was there.  We went back to the hotel and jumped into the pool for another swim, got rained on again a couple of times, and then went in to get dressed for our lunch. 

Off to the Colombian restaurant (their ad says that it is Florida’s oldest restaurant) in historic downtown St. Augustine.  They said 45 min wait but it was about 3 minutes and we were seated.  Cheryl was not even back from parking the car but she had no problem finding me inside.  I could not decide what to eat so we ordered the La Completa Cubana: To sample the flavors of Cuba, we offer this Cuban feast of Roast Pork, Boliche, Empanada de Picadillo, platanos, yuca, black beans and yellow rice.  It was marvelous!  We also ordered a Café con Leche Martini: A twist on a Cuban classic made with Van Gogh Double Espresso Double Caffeine Vodka and Tres Leches Triple Crème Liqueur.

Ok I’m not a big drinker but I’ve tasted a lot of mixed drinks but this one is hands down the best drink I’ve ever had.  It was smooth and creamy and downright orgasmic!! (don’t ask)  we sipped on our drink and ate our warm cuban bread with fresh butter and smiled great big smiles the whole time!  hahaha  by the time we had finished our drinks our food was ready and it’s a good thing because as Cheryl said, that fountain was looking mighty inviting!  When the waitress asked if we wanted another and I was about to say yes Cheryl (wisely) said ABSOLUTELY NOT!  I think if I’d have had a second we’d have had me doing table dances! hahaha boy was it potent as well as delicious.  Anyway our meal arrived just in the nick of time and it was everything one could ask of Cuban cuisine.  The plate was a sampler of three of their special creations, Roast pork “A la Cubana”: Generous slices of roast pork with a delicious marinade, Empanadas de Picadillo is described as follows: Our mother and grandmother, Adela, always had our favorite Empanada ready when we visited her.  Our Empanada starts with her recipe for Picadillo, spiced ground beef, garlic, tomato, onions, raisins and olives, wrapped in pastry turnovers and served with roasted corn and black bean salsa, Boliche “Criollo” is: Roasted eye round of beef stuffed with chorizo and roasted in flavorful gravy. Served with black beans, white rice and platanos. A family favorite!  And the platanos (bananas) were cooked and had a nice sear on the outside that kind of candied them.  I was brave and had a taste and I actually liked it!  The black beans and rice with yucca was spiced nicely and garnished with a bit of fresh onion.  All in all the meal was delicious. 

I was eyeing a slice of Key lime pie but my stomach was so full I couldn’t even finish my plate so that will have to wait for the next trip as well.  Sigh!  (But a little bird told me that Cheryl, who is a pretty wonderful chief herself, can make the best key lime pie I would ever taste, so perhaps I’ll get a slice sometime in the near future!)

After our supper we were no longer feeling the effects of our martinis so we took a walk through the shops that offer a wide variety of goods for tourists.  Lots of interesting beach type things, some upscale clothing boutiques and other shops with souvenirs and other delightful goodies.  But by that time my feet were screaming at me so we made our way back to the car and set off for some relaxation at the hotel again. 

The weather was still windy and blowing and we had an occasional few drops of rain but it made for a nicely cooled down feeling to the 90 degree heat the sun was beating down.  We took a slight detour and drove around some of the neighborhoods and I was thrilled to see such quaint cottages, cute little beach homes, and homes of Spanish style architecture here.  Lots of them for sale it seems but I know the prices are way over any budget I could come up with.  A pipedream…. Sigh!  Cheryl loves the Spanish architecture and we saw some beauties that she adored, one day Jesus will have one for her I believe.  Most of the area is either next to or very close to one of the many waterways, marshes, or other water.  It’s fascinating to me that a city can be on land and surrounded by ocean and water and yet so close together in such a compact area.  This is a beautiful place for sure.

Back in the hotel we both collapsed onto our beds and reviewed our delicious meal and wonderful adventure at the beach that morning. 

I can’t exactly recall if we’d gone over to the outlets before or after we came back to the hotel but we did spend an hour or so looking for a gift for Levi and some sandals for me to wear (as if I did not have enough shoes with me! hahaha)

At any rate back at the hotel we were deciding what we’d do next, and had decided to head out to an Irish pub for some more drinks to finish off the day when Delores called to ask how we were doing in the hurricane.  Both of us looked out our window and wondered what she was talking about!  It was a little windy and there was a bit of rain but the sky was not that ominous looking outside at all.  So we turned on the TV to get the weather and found that there was indeed a tropical storm blowing in that was at Jacksonville but heading our way.  I really wanted to have our drinks at the Irish pub but we decided that was not wise to do in a storm so we settled on going over to the Wal-Mart and to just get a bottle of wine or something and have our drinks in our room.  We watched the storm on TV and tried to time our excursion with the lull in the radar tracking of the clouds…  It was raining pretty hard when we ventured out that last time but we got there and back without incident and settled in for the evening with our feet up and had our last meal of the day there in the room because we still had plenty of salads left in the cooler from what Cheryl brought.  

My feet were pretty swollen and I was hurting pretty bad at this point so it was a welcome rest for me.   It makes me mad that I can’t just go and go like I used to anymore!  Oh well, I should buy stock in ibuprofen I think.

Monday: it was still raining when we got up but not too bad.  We went and had waffles at the breakfast bar in the hotel and our coffee and had a leisurely time getting our things together and packed up to leave.   My head was hurting and I was dizzy – I guess from the barometric pressure of the storm – so I was taking pain meds and Meclazine to ward off a migraine, and my feet were still swollen and also in pain so I asked Cheryl to drive us home.

We decided to take the freeway route that she usually takes just because of the storm and the potential for bad traffic on the way.  But it was not bad at all and except for some construction and a bit of nasty rain while we went through ? town (I was sleeping for quite a way) it was an uneventful trip.  Cheryl is a good driver and she did not mind it she said.

My little car did good.  We put about 1150 miles on it and spent about $140.00 all together on gas including the last fill up on my way home.

I have to mention that I had called Tracy several times during the weekend to taunt her.  J next trip she is absolutely going to come with us! 


Thank you Jesus for good times, good friends, good food, and your presence that graces us so abundantly in this broken yet still astonishingly beautiful world.




Thursday, May 17, 2012

05/17/12 the good old days

I love that song by the Judds, Grandpa, tell me 'bout the good old days.
I heard it the other day and it made me cry.
I lost my dad in 2009 and partly the song brings back memories of him and how life was when I was a kid.
It was not too much like the song other than to say that my dad's words were dependable.  If he said it he did it.  He was the rock in my life.
But something else was in there, a haunting for a time I've never really known.
I've caught glimpses of it, to be truthful.  But most of all, my heart has been searching all along for.......

This morning I was talking to Jesus and telling him how much I love him.
It is so amazing to me still to be so loved.  Every time I recall it, I am blown away.
In contemplation and worship I began to think it's so much more like a fairy tale story than reality.
And my heart put it all together - into something like this:

Father, tell me of the greatest love story.
Where nothing else is more important than connecting heart to heart.
Where nobility and courage and sacrifice are signs of pure love and devotion.
And nothing can come between or ever diminish what is eternal and forever binding.
Tell me how that love created all things beautiful, magnificent, majestic, and lovely.
How everything was perfect wonderful and flawless.
I want to hear about the generosity and depth of that love, how it gave every precious thing - gifts for precious love.
And how all was right in the world, nothing evil, wrong or bad.

Then Father, I must be told of the tragedy when that love was rejected.
How deceit found its way into the lovers heart and turned your love away.
I want to know about the pain of that loss, the torture of longing, the despair of betrayal.
The depth of the anguish felt for what must then become separation.
And the feeling of heartache for the innocence trust and openness now lost.

But then tell me about the rescue, the devotion to restoration, the unconditional search for reconciliation.
How nothing will stop this noble love from his pursuit of the beloved.
Tell me to what lengths that he will go to find her again and woo her and win her back.
I want to hear of the danger and adventure and daring and sacrifice and the long hard journey fought in a  desperate impossible situation - overcome because nothing else matters but true love.
What about the enemy and the schemes to thwart this love, deceitful diabolical powerful malevolent abhorrence of all the beauty that could be.  His jealousy and hatred of the beloved and the purity of their love.
Tell me of the secret plan: the undercover mission into treacherous territory that was the stronghold of the enemy.  How one small slip and all would have been lost, but how, with success, everything was to be gained.
What about the hero who came in disguise and fought gallantly with his whole heart.
How he came through when it seemed it was certain that he would lose and love would forever be lost.
And I need to hear of the battle, bloody and painful, shameful and disgusting, with the twisted lies of the betrayal in what seemed to be the end of hope.

Oh I want to hear of the band of friends who aided him in his quest and the bond that love formed between them; of their journey together to bring love back.  And when all seemed lost, how did they feel at that moment?  What was in their hearts?  Did they know the incredible depth of the weight of the situation?  Were they aware of what was really at risk?  Did their hearts fail them when everything appeared to be ending?

Father, now tell me of the victory, of the hero winning the battle.  Tell me how he overcame the enemy and conquered against all odds.  Tell me about how love is stronger than even death.  How love can overcome anything and everything no matter what.

And the best part Daddy!  Tell me of the plan of reuniting love once lost.  Of the mighty love that would never give up, never give in, never leave or forsake.  What is to come and what will be the rest of the story?  How will it happen?  Tell me of a happily ever after ending that is to come one day, and of all the glorious times that will be spent together at last, never again to be apart.  Where time fades away and all that is left is belonging - together - experiencing this unbridled love forever.



I love this story.
I long to be swept away in the heart of it.
I cherish knowing that it is not a fairy tale, but the most true thing above all else.
Jesus I am astonished at your love for me.
It amazes me, engulfs me, covers me, surrounds me, lifts me up, drives me, inspires me, devours me.
This love story of your heart is more than I can fathom or comprehend in my mind, but my heart - my heart knows it to be true.
I love you Jesus.
I adore you.

I don't want to dissect the story and look for hidden meanings.  I want to languish in the bliss of knowing that I am the love fought for.  The love that you've gone to the extreme to in order to reconnect with.  I want to relish every moment of your sacrifice, your determination, your devotion, your faithfulness, your commitment, your tender mercy and forgiveness, your compassion, your zeal, your passion.  Your heart.

Beyond my wildest imagination and understanding, I am loved by you.
Yes, I love this story.






Wednesday, May 9, 2012

05/09/12 Salvation the gift.


I'm often confronted with a feeling of uneasiness when I hear the gospel of 'salvation' presented.  
It's because usually it's presented as "The Gospel".  Not that I deny that salvation is part of what Jesus came to give us.  But when it is the ONLY focus it becomes as much - us worshiping the gift rather than the giver - as in any other case of us focusing on only one facet of Jesus ministry.  Yes He came to set us free in salvation, but look at His 'opening arguments' as it were, from Isaiah:61:1 as told in Luke 4:16-19. 

      "The Lord's Spirit has come to me, because he has chosen me to tell the good news to the poor.  The Lord has sent me to announce freedom for prisoners, to give sight to the blind, to free everyone who suffers, and to say, `This is the year the Lord has chosen.' " [CEV]


What did HE say that he came for?  Salvation alone?  NO
He came to set the prisoners free. Prisoners of what?  Sin, to be sure, but much more than that.  
Prisoners of the life that we've been living, pain and suffering, the lies of the enemy, and the torment of disconnection that we all feel deep inside.  
Prisoners that have been kept from God by a veil and by religion, and by traditions of man, and by the enemy of our soul.
He came to restore our ability to connect with God, and to give us life, here and now.
He came to tell us 'This is who I am - the lost love of your hearts, the one who would do anything to connect with you.'

It baffles me that so many "Christians" are so stuck on this 'gospel' of salvation.  If we are honest and examine the evidence we see that having simply received salvation has NOT changed their lives. Sadly, if anything this 'salvation gospel' has put them into more bondage than ever now having to deal with sin management.  They are now stuck trying to live up to an ideal of 'Christianity' and to be what they could never be before accepting Christ as savior.  It simply does not work to add more rules or to promote the appearance of goodness.  Jesus did not come to add more rules and more guilt and more weight for us to carry around.  Power comes from being connected to God heart to heart. There is no more power to live rightly just by knowing you are not going to hell than there was before, and faking it is just a lie.  They would be better off being honest and living how they please.
But for truth, for pure honest Truth, He is your man.
Jesus came to set us free.
No faking it.
This was not simply a rescue mission of Him just coming to save us from hell.  
It was a mission of restoration, not just figuratively or 'positionally', but entirely; physically emotionally mentally and spiritually.  
Jesus wants us to have it all.
He gave us back the ability to connect with Him and to stay that way.

WOW!  
Do you know what that means?

The veil was torn in two!
No more separation necessary!
God is now within reach again!
Hurrah for our King Jesus who opened the door back to God!

And how does Jesus give us that connection?
He gives us sight, heals our wounds, and announces the good news is that NOW it's time.
It means that for those who accept His invitation, our hearts are free at last.  
Free!
Free from the bondage of sin, but also free to love and not hold back.  
Free to trust entirely that we are His.
Free to walk and talk and act as we are - as it is supposed to be - as His beloved.
Free to bask in the love so generously given to us.
Free to share our whole hearts with Him and with others.

It's not an assignment people, IT'S A PARTY!

Invite everyone to come into the freedom of this love.  
It is endless and everlasting.  
It means that whatever is going on in our lives: it is love in action.  
God is up to something.  And that something is Love.

Our previous notions of what it meant to belong to Him are forever changed.
When that connection is made, He goes to work healing all the wounds, cleaning out all the closets of pain and hurt that causes us to be less than His perfect love.  He takes us by the hand and opens our eyes to the vast potential that He created us to be.  He reveals just what He was thinking when He created each one of us.  All unique, all part of His plan, all some glorious portion of God's reflection given to show Him in truth to the world.
What does that say about Him?  
Salvation is awesome, but it's one - only one - of the gifts He came to give us.
Love is the greatest gift that we've been given: the ability to connect to the source of Love. 
Now, that is something to be excited about!
That is something to worship Him for.

What does He ask of us?
It's very simple:  Love. (of course - reflecting Him)

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

05/08/2012 Never Lose Connection


There is a whole lot more going on behind the scenes of our lives than most of us have been led to believe.
As William Gurnall said, "It is the image of God reflected in you that so enrages hell; it is this at which the demons hurl their mightiest weapons." [J.E.]

At every turn, check your hearts believers. Check your connection with the One who Loves before any word or thought or feeling becomes deed. Remember we are hated with the fierce wrath of one who knows he has lost but desires to take down as many Christ bearers as possible. Do not give the enemy a foothold!

And be sure to know that we have an enemy lurking and whispering and accusing, always. We must stay tuned in and connected at all times.