Walk
in what you know or you will get nowhere
Obey.
Just
obey.
Submit.
Submit
everything to Him.
All
the little lies, the little bad habits of sin are coming to the surface.
Like
rockets the shoot from me out and are seen by all, the lies, the theft, the
adultry, the unfaithfulness.
Like
the 4th of July they are displayed in the night sky for all to
see.
My
sin is not hidden.
My
rebellion no secret.
I
am open and exposed and my iniquity is written in Your books.
The
idols I have worshiped are lined up in front of the throng.
They
are dead and worthless and have no strength.
My
lying tongue my deceitful mouth has betrayed me and revealed my heart of
wickedness.
The
lust of my heart is broadcast onto the walls of the nations for all to see.
And
I am ashamed.
As
soon as the Word is opened to me the habits of old spring up and spew out of
me.
How
have I not seen this before?
Why
have I trusted in lies rather than the Holy One?
Why
have I sought to reinforce my position with earthly gain by deceit rather than
believing the Word of the Almighty?
What
could my heart have been invested in that is greater than my LORD?
How
could it be so fickle as to desire other than You?
Woe
to my hands that work at sin.
Alas
my feet run to those idols.
I
tear my clothes in shame at the words of my mouth spewing out lies and filth.
Great
is the sin that is in me.
And
yet You my Lord, even the Most High have been faithful
You
have loved me even in my sin, even in my disgrace.
Though
I have called myself by Your Name I have not obeyed You.
I
have been chasing foxes and running off after shadows and smoke.
But
You have patiently held on to me and been the shelter that has protected me.
Your
Word has told me yet I have not listened.
Your
Spirit has confirmed it in my heart yet I have turned away.
Great
is Your faithfulness my God, the Covenant One who does not deny Your Word.
How
long have You waited for me to confess, my Savior?
How
long yet are Your longsuffering and patient ways?
Oh
Father open my eyes to Your laws and precepts and allow me to have strength to
walk in them.
Forgive
me the worship of all these idols, for not trusting in You and Your Word, for
exalting myself above You who are Most High.
These
sins I confess and I ask forgiveness Father.
Oh
Lord God my Saviour how I have betrayed You and yet You love me.
Though
I do not understand it and though it seems fruitless for me to reach out to You
I will.
Though
I know sin is locked in my very DNA I reach to You.
I
reach for You Lord God, for Your lovingkindness and mercy.
I
trust You and though my mind and heart and flesh rebel I believe You are Your
Word and Truth.
It
must be from the inside out.
It
must be from Your light that shines on the sin for You to cleanse it from me.
It
must be Your Spirit that brings me to this place of submission.
I
must obey by Your Spirit for I have not the strength in my own flesh or will to
overcome these sins that live in me and would exert themselves over You Oh God
my God.
I
cherish this rebuke
I
long for Your pruning
My
heart desires to bear You fruit.
So
be it Lord.
I
am Yours.
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