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Hi I am a Christian, a nurse, the mother of two grown children and two grand daughters, one grandson, and 3 dogs. I love people and have a huge heart. So why am I blogging? Well I've been told that I need to publish my writings. This seemed to be the easiest way to do that. Also, I want to get out there and live life to the fullest. Empty nests are great because now I get to explore the world. I'm starting right here on my computer. So come along with me and as I learn to fly we'll soar together!

Thursday, February 9, 2012

05/04/10 I caught a glimpse of the vision yesterday.


Finally I see it forming... 
The vision of my purpose.  How my life can matter for God. 
It’s a vision of what He desires from me outside of and/or in addition to my personal relationship of knowing Him.
He has given me His heart for His people.  Especially for those who have fallen through the cracks.
It’s the idea of reaching out to those who have perhaps rejected formal religion but have deep spiritual needs and a desire to connect with God.
Or to the people who feel left out and lonely. Those who have been wounded and feel abandoned.  Those who have a deep need to see God’s love in action.

My heart is for the people who have or want to embrace Christ but have been disillusioned by or rejected by the formal church.
I do not know what shape this vision is supposed to look like, but that group of people are the ones I have been called to minister to.  To love on. To reach.
I understand their desire and need to reject formality, I grew up with that mindset. 
I feel and share in the pain of their rejection from the ‘rule makers’, I grew up with that as well.
My heart is to reach out to those who desire to know God.  To know Truth.
To teach them that ‘sin’ is not simply wrong things that people do or have done. 
But rather that any ‘wrong’ actions are the acting out or the result of ‘sin’.  Sin is actually one thing: it’s the rejection of a relationship with God. 
It is choosing our own way rather than choosing to acknowledge Him as God and submitting to His will: and His will is for us to know Him.

I have a huge desire to love people regardless of their actions, and show them that God’s greatest desire is to be in relationship with them. 
It has everything to do with relationship and very little to do with actions. 
Knowing God is loving God and realizing His love for us. 
All of our actions are in truth simply reactions that stem from either knowing the love that He has for us, or a lack of knowing it. 
For a believer it is because of being loved by God and knowing Him that we love in return.  And the love of - with - and for God is nothing like what the world sees or portrays.
It is His love that produces a desire in us for obedience to His will and to grow in our relationship with Him.
And it is through that relationship that the Holy Spirit provides the impetus, power and means for living a renewed lifestyle, it’s not through the efforts of the person. 

Christ was sent to demonstrate that love for us.  He is the means for us to know God and the only way to understand Him.  He is the bridge to God.  He came to set us free from our bondage of self willed living, and show us the way to freedom.  There is no freedom, no joy, no life, no love outside of knowing the Father.

I want to help teach people where the importance in life is and help them refocus on what God has asked of us.
I want to point them to Him in truth and fellowship and to totally sidestep the idea of working to be ‘good enough’. 
Actually I want to work at NOT allowing that idea of working to be ‘good enough’ to drive them.

I don’t want to throw out any of the Scriptures at all. I do want to highlight the reason for the Scriptures which is to bring people back to God – back to fellowship with Him. 
To tell His story of loving us and His desire to live in a close relationship with us. 
I want to tell them that our relationship was severed because we have/had chosen to live our own way. 
That the source of our anguish in life is the lack of that relationship with Him. 
But I also want them to know that we can be reconnected to Him through Jesus, the Christ.
It all boils down to this: God has two rules, 1) love, and 2) love.  To love God and to love our neighbors.

I’ve lived in very rebellious times in my life, of hating all forms of external control – the rule makers, and rejecting anyone or anything that would try to make me measure up. 
And I’ve also lived the very opposite extreme lifestyle of conservative strict rules and of a religious mindset of trying to look like I’m good enough, trying to show that I do measure up.
Neither of these ways of living was fulfilling and neither worked.  They were both bondage.
I don’t know if my perspective is unique or not, but I do know that maybe I can help to be a bridge between these seeming opposing extremes.
I do not want to make puppet people out of anyone, or turn them into the kind of people that do not live truth.  Truth is vital for us all.
I want to help bind the body of Christ together and help us to live in one accord as a true body.
In my mind the real body of Christ is a diverse group of uniquely made people who fit together to do God’s will. 
As His body we live and function using the gifts that He has given us to love Him and love one another.  Period.
It’s a matter of returning to basics.
For me, if there were nothing ever added or taught or learned about God than this - it is enough. 
There is more here than any person can achieve in a lifetime in these two rules: to love and to love.
If I know those two things and desire to live them I can be who He created me to be.

I have no idea how it will work out yet, but I want to live out this vision.
I do not know where He will take me.
I just know that because I am loved, I must love people and in loving them it will help to set them free.




Jeanne 

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