09/03/09 i repent

I have had the mind set that I am alone.  That is a blatant lie to myself that I have believed.  I am NOT alone.  I am betrothed to the Lord and He is with me.

I have been guilty of talking but not walking the walk.

I have been about me and not about God.

Father please forgive me.

I have loved myself and not You.

I have worshiped my own desires and not Yours

I have chosen my own will and not Your Lord.

Please forgive me Father.

Please place that gate around my mouth and the hedge about my mind.  It is hard to be patient and longsuffering.  I balk at the idea even.  Please help me Father to be patient.  Please teach me to come to You for all my needs and not ‘work’ them myself.

Father I want to be all and only Yours even though my heart desires other things.  So please help me to live in You and have Your being.  Let me deminish and You shine forth.  Father I once was in constant communion with You but You have become an afterthought.  Life seems to swallow me up in all the triviality of daily tasks.  I have been guilty of being busy even when I am being busy in what I know You desire, it has been a task and not an offering of love to You.  Please make me mindful of Your presence all throughout the day and night.  My heart is decietful and my mind demands control.  Father please take control and do not let me have it back.  Let me rest in the knowledge that You have it and stop trying to do it all myself.  I have felt lost lately and I desire to feel Your presence.  Let my life be that I seek Your face and I listen for Your voice. In all I am let me be a praise offering to You Lord.