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Hi I am a Christian, a nurse, the mother of two grown children and two grand daughters, one grandson, and 3 dogs. I love people and have a huge heart. So why am I blogging? Well I've been told that I need to publish my writings. This seemed to be the easiest way to do that. Also, I want to get out there and live life to the fullest. Empty nests are great because now I get to explore the world. I'm starting right here on my computer. So come along with me and as I learn to fly we'll soar together!

Thursday, February 9, 2012

02/02/10 spurs


If passion is buried it creates a constipation of the spirit of a person.

If I stuff my desires and my passions then I become frustrated and angry and then disillusioned and then depressed and then numb.

Maybe not in that order, but all of that is part of what happened when I tried to burry the passion that is inside of me, that was created in me, that is part of who God made me to be.
Denying this part of me caused a back up in my soul, spirit, and body.  The result was a build up, in my case, of fat.  That of course caused more anger depression frustration disillusionment and numbness. 

So love – faith – hope – buried, stifled, set on a shelf, or otherwise unused is not just sitting there doing nothing.  It actually became like a burr or a corpse, causing problems making me uncomfortable, and stinking up my life. 

I think that anyone who does not use their passion, use the gift of love, of faith, of hope, not only loses out on the reward in the use, the act of that passion.  They also cause a world of problems of stink in their own lives.  Eventually it has to be dealt with.

I think about Marc denying that passion in his life.  No wonder he is ‘surface’ in his communication.  No wonder he is disgusted with women.  He has buried his passion and in doing so not only did he lose out on that wonderful gift, but it was a burr in his life, it caused part of him to begin to rot and petrify.  He stuffed down his passion and in doing so he stuffed down God.  So he feels like he is in prison.  He is getting more and more claustrophobic isn’t he?

He has this huge passion that he has been denying and stuffing all these years, just like me.  I had not been holding it in wait for the one, and neither had he.  He doesn’t realize it either.  That his heart is exploding to express that passion.   He is miserable and he does not know why does he?

I was miserable and didn’t know why really.  I figured it was the human stuff, about love and rejection etc.  But hey it’s all tied up with God and the passion that He gave me in my soul to express the love I have for Him, by loving my husband, and others.  That passion must be expressed or it is a spur in my life and eventually becomes a rotting corpse that stinks up my life.

If God gave me passion, it’s not for me!  It’s for those who are without love!
If God made me strong, it’s not for me!  It’s for those who are weak!



Jeanne 

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