Often
- time simply slips by without my being aware of it. Time is spent,
spent as a commodity, spent on what is most important in one’s
life. I think of Martha and Mary and the
Lord saying that Mary has chosen the better way to spend her time. I must go to
work and I must take care of the things that are needful for survival and
therefore I spend my time doing
so.
Lately
I have no appetite for it though. I
yearn to spend time with my Lord, in His company and presence. I long for walks with Him and talking and
just being with Him. I cannot get enough
time with my Love. When I wake up in the
morning He is the first thing on my mind and all throughout the day I dream of
Him. At night when I lay down to sleep I
meditate on Him and how it will one day be when I see Him face to face. For now things are simply mundane and full of
the everyday tasks to be done. But He is
ever in my mind and a constant presence in my heart.
Sometimes
I have a song for Him and it is joyful and full of worship. Other times I must express how He loves me in
words. Just now there is a quietness
that is void of description, but He is here and with me and in every breath I
take. It is not always those mountaintop
volcanic eruptions that are required to focus me in on Him. Sometimes it is in the stillness of sitting
quietly just breathing in His presence that I find Him ever so close and
attentive to my heart. In depths of
despair He is there to comfort me outside of feelings and emotions. But just now, just now I simply rest in Him
and know that He walks with me and sits with me and as I focus on His beauty He
drinks in the worship of it. I stand and
sit and kneel in Him. And with Him I
walk.
Be
still and know that I am God
In
the stillness of that knowing there is such peace and awe and wonder at the
vast love that He is. I am tempted to
become intoxicated with it I am drawn
into His presence like a moth to at flame.
His delight in me causes me to swoon with the emotion of it. Yet I am quiet and I contemplate who He is
again in awe and wonder at that great love.
Today is a day to be sober and to reflect and to meditate. Explosions will come later, but just now we
walk in His garden together as one - delighting in one another.
Ah
this love is so much more than emotion.
It
is eternity.
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