Oh
Father God Your Holiness so sweet to me
Showered
by the power of Your deep Love.
It
is Water for my thirsty spirit
Thus
Your presence quenches my desire
And
at once my eyes behold Your glorious beauty
In
all the universe – creation’s canvas
Spread
out before me this great artistry
You
feed my soul with visions of Your splendor
Drawing
me near, close to Your very heart Lord
Your
arms enfold me with such tender care
Guiding
me gently to Your purpose
Securely
held in You oh Sanctuary
I
taste Your words that draw a perfect picture
Winsome
sounds brings Your music to my ears
Your
tender touch, it gives me such great comfort
And
so my senses are tickle with Your delights
Yet
somehow it all leaves me with such longing
Your
face Your heart Your will is what I crave
But
until my day of heaven’s dawning
I’ll
content for now to take You in this way.
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....got some bit of inspiration yesterday. Like savory
smells of a feast being prepared, that is just not quite ready.... so we have
to wait for it - yet we can enjoy the wonderful odors wafting from the kitchen
while we prepare ourselves for that feast.
I love that He created us in His image and gave us the ability to
enjoy Him with all of our senses. Awesome that He uses everything to draw
us to Him and to reveal Himself to us.
But in thoughts today there is even more ...
I’d love to feel the pleasure of His smile like Eric Liddell the
Scottish Olympian who said - “I believe God made me for a purpose, but
he also made me fast, and when I run I feel God’s pleasure.” Apparently,
when Liddell competed, He could sense God’s happiness about what he was doing.
And yet, the pleasure that he sensed was not so much in the fact that he was
able to run fast but rather that he was fulfilling the purpose for which God
had created him. In other words, the source of the pleasure for his Maker
was in his child being the very man that God had intended him to be. Hence, the
divine pleasure was not in watching his child perform but in seeing him fulfill
his superintended calling.
And I thought for myself, have I ever felt God’s pleasure in such a
way? I have not. And I wonder still what my specific purpose
is.
Outside of speculation and my own silly desires I do not know what
that might be. Wouldn’t it be awesome to feel the pleasure of God’s
smile?
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Yes he draws us with EVERYTHING He is!
His will = relationship, everything else is peripheral.
But His love is so great for us that He wants us to enjoy life too.
It only works out right tho when our relationship with Him is
first.
Yes it’s all about Him not us.
And oh how His love showers us with delights!
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Still there is that something that I long to know about. That
something that I know without a doubt that makes Him pleased. Like I can
look up and know that my Father is smiling at me because I’m doing what He made
me to do.
Had that discussion with Carrie in 2006 when all my stuff
started. We both had a sense of having not found ‘it’ yet. And I
still don’t feel that I have found it.
I know that going about life and doing His will gives Him pleasure,
that when we are obedient He is pleased, when we love Him He is pleased.
But there is something I think that is missing from my perspective. The
sense of purpose like the runner who did what he was created to do, run.
He knew exactly what he was created to do, he did it to the best of his ability
and it was done for God. So he knew that God was pleased with him.
But more than the sense of pleasure that we feel He has in us when we serve
him.
Like your desire to fly. I have a sneaking suspicion that
when you fly you will know that it pleases God. Not just because it’s
your desire, but because He put that in you, your purpose maybe.
It’s a step beyond knowing Him. It’s knowing Him so well that
you know His plan for you... You know His purpose for you. So that
there is a sense of urgency to be whatever that is.
And I am struggling to figure that out.
I long to know Him like that. To know Him so well that I know
myself, the way He sees me.
Does that make sense?
I would love for it to be tied to my relationship to Marc. I
think it may.
The passion I have which I used in the past in a perverted way has
a lot to do with it.
Hmmm sexual passion and sensual attractiveness... could that
be what He made me for?
It sounds obserd but that thing that He asked of me back then, to
use my beauty and sensuality and attractiveness for His glory, that was my
calling. I knew it back then and I said no to Him. There is a
capacity for charisma that I have been given that has never been tapped.
I have been afraid of it, because I did not think I could handle it, controll
it. Yet it is the strongest thing in me. It is so deep within me
that it is part of my DNA. I don’t know how else to explain it.
There is a part of me that is like cream, wants to rise to the top. It
has been stuffed down so long that I had lost track of it, but it’s still
there. And it’s the very thing that the enemy has used against me all my
life.
God made me strong and outgoing and flirty and fun and sensual and
very passionate. Passion is what He gave me to use for His glory. I
just don’t know how to express it in the right way.
Jeanne 
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