It was Gabriel's first one.
He was my valentine.
He felt no pressure to make me happy, I'm sure.
It was all good.
I've thought about how we do this thing to each other. We put them in a place that says they are great, and they meet needs, and feed our souls and hearts, and make us happy. It can be our lover, best friend, family, etc. whoever we hold in esteem. And I realized that in a way we are not just acknowledging their worth in our lives, but we're also kind of putting them into bondage. Especially if they are not whole...
If I think too highly of someone I wonder if they feel pressure to live up to that level? I know that is not what is intended from my part, but I also know that for some that's how it may come across.
My BFF Tracy is such a beautiful person. Inside and out. She is lovely, feminine, sexy, regal, honorable, precious, and utterly lovable She apparently has not known this most of her life. Today she told me that I have spoken those things over her (in so many words) and I see that she is blossoming. She is beginning to walk in them as she truly is. She has spoken these things into my life as well.
Both of us had believed the lies we'd been led to believe from our past. So for us, it's not pressure to live up to something, but the key to freedom. Our eyes opening to what is Truth about us.
I guess if a person was dependent on others for their self worth then it might be different.
But none of us is responsible for how another person feels. Not in the way we've been believing.
I choose to allow the good and the bad into my heart. I choose my reactions to it. I choose if I believe it or not.
Jesus calls me his beloved and tells me that he loves me with an everlasting love. It has taken me many many years to come to truly believe this. He has been here waiting all along. I do not feel pressure to perform for him any longer. Because the truth is that he made me, just the way I am, allowed my life to be the way it has been, forming me into the woman I have become. None of it was by accident, nothing has slipped by him along the way without his awareness. The enemy has tried to squash my heart but Jesus turned it all for good. I am glad. It brought me to here, today, knowing complete love and acceptance. I am not ashamed for who I am. I do not have an impossible standard to live up to in order to be loved. This is true freedom.
And by the same token, I am now able to allow others to be who they are, love them as they are, see the beauty in who Jesus has made them to be.
The pressure is off of me completely, and on Jesus.
Good news! He can handle it!
So when I say you are beautiful, I'm looking through eyes that have learned that beauty is truth and love combined in a person bringing out the essence of who they were made to be.
I am certainly blessed.
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