This is from today's devo by John Eldredge of RHM - out of the book Desire:

Flip with me for a moment through the photo album of your heart, and collect a few of your most treasured memories. Recall a time in your life when you felt really special, a time when you knew you were loved. The day you got engaged perhaps. Or a childhood Christmas. Maybe a time with your grandparents. 

The first time I read that I was floored

I had NO time to recall when I felt really special and knew that I was loveduntil I went through the transformation with the RHM books...

And it was difficult to read that back then, but now as I read it again it's wonderfulIt used to be that I was hopeless and felt so alone and disconnected and worthless.Not so any more!

I am loved

I belong

I am cherished

Just as I am

I was made to be ME, and I am good enough, not a mistake, not a work in progressI am loved and I belong just as I am, on purpose

Not as an, oh I’ll include you too I guess

But instead as an, I CHOOSE YOU just as you are because I made you to be just as you are and who you are and I want you on purpose

 Now I can recall many moments in my life that are treasured memories, when I felt really special and when I knew I was loved. 

  Thank you Jesus for making me – for loving me – and for giving me the hope and purpose and belonging that I have now.

Thank You

It's been a while since I have added anything here.

Life has been busy keeping me busy!

I am settled (pretty much) into my new house

I've gotten another puppy - Hope.

I've been able to be in my grandson's life often

I've bought a new car

I have been living my life.

Jesus however remains my center, my core, my connection to what is possible.

I had a strange dream the other day and I know that my Father was speaking to me through it.

We are so much less than what we were intended to be, yet we need to be encouraged - because we are all growing towards just that.

My life is so much the same and yet my heart remains held tight to the source of life.

It is no longer a matter of fighting to get somewhere, something, someone, or against what used to seem like an overwhelming enemy.  He is not in control.  I am not in control.  

My Father is in control.  And I welcome all that He has for me.

I glory in the love he has showered down on me and the continuous adoration that I am aware of now.

What can be of greater value?

Just making a note here to document the joy, peace, and freedom that have become my life.

Old struggles still rear their ugly heads, but my perspective has drastically changed and I have no fear.

I continue to head right into the melee in full knowledge and understanding of who I am and who's I am.

Father thank you for my life.